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March 09 天空是奇异的蓝天气好的时候，阳光刺得双目微微发疼，可是非常温暖。
深褐色的头发会发烫，白皙的脸和淡淡发粉的脸颊，有些俏皮的雀斑在鼻翼周围，黑眼睛忽闪亮晶晶。
健康又有活力。
海风抚过白色的灯塔。
海边的沙软得不得了。
天空是奇异的蓝。
然后梦醒了，凌晨4点半。
去厨房倒了些水，喝完发觉没了睡意。
 看着镜子里一张苍白的脸，没有表情。
蜷在沙发上随意看些深夜电视节目。
慢慢天就亮了。
February 28 再见亦是朋友我是喜欢纸质照片多于digital的，我喜欢在家里走来走去的时候都能看到自己，家人，朋友，爱人的样子和灿烂的笑容，多美好。明儿去洗照片去。最近我的状态非常的稳定，stable, 有点嘲讽的意味在里面，我承认之前偶尔有些心绪不宁，可是想明白了也不过尔尔，干脆也就爱怎么着怎么着吧，人长大了也没法Naive，那就不是naive了，是笨！hehehe.不过生活马上要面对巨大转变，我希望这个过渡期能平稳一些。 很小时候我是一个非常害羞的孩子，一说话就会脸红。后来稍稍大点不知道怎么就性格鲜明，跟仙人掌下凡似的浑身是刺，世界里只有对或者错没有卡在中间的定义，太极端了其实不好。再后来性格慢慢被改造，一路走来陪伴在身边的朋友们教会了我很多事，而且成长必定伴随着痛苦，妈妈说小时候吃苦比长大吃苦强，有些事情在我无法控制的时候我常常拿这个来安慰自己，现在再回头看看，哈哈，嗨！真是小孩子的天真啊！就跟我小时候写日记，超级夸张的：‘今天是个我一辈子都难忘的日子，。。。。’然后含含蓄蓄的描述下心情。鬼晓得那天到底怎么了？路上捡到了1块钱？或者跟心仪的小男生在小卖部寒暄了？还是什么小时候自以为神神秘秘乱七八糟的小事情？ 我都忘记了。 为什么突然想这些呢，其实我害怕长大，其实喜欢我的世界里是非对错黑白分明，每件事情都概念明确，yes就是yes,no就是no,没有这所谓的 stupid answer: well, maybe, i suppose, or, ahhh, yes and no, actually i donno. 我是economist to-be，事实上我写的东西全都是tmd不明确型答案，我的态度永远都是ambiguous含糊不清的。我曾经追逐着每件事情都要弄明白，以为知道答案就能解决一切困惑，哪里知道其实好多事情是没有答案的，或者明确点，没有简单的答案的，我不想上升到哲学的角度，神学的角度我又更加不懂了。有时候我能明白为什么宗教的力量无比强大，你只需要有faith并且祷告上帝，你的困惑就会迎刃而解。 再见亦是朋友，原谅即是遗忘。 我想很多很多事情会不在我控制中被我慢慢忘掉，虽然我努力的想记住它们。不光是事情，当时认为重要的事情，还有身边的人，当时认为重要的人。哪里看/写过这句我只能陪伴你数年，然后匆匆离开。而数年这个度量单位，没人知道是多久。永远有多远这样的问题已经让我发笑，是我生性太凉薄么？还是这就是成长的代价？ 周四是Anita的生日，从4点就从办公室里开始喝酒聊天然后一路杀到town里酒吧继续。我喜欢和朋友们在一起。我是一个幸运的孩子。我渡过了一个非常愉快的一天，我不用也不必说我永远也忘不了这天，因为我知道我会很快忘掉，而且照片的作用就是在未来提醒你，你看，你那天很开心！这不就够了么。所以赶紧的我明儿就去印照片。
February 15 看图说话There is a fine line between hope and false hope, nevertheless, people tend to believe lots of things when they are vulnerable. Most of time we are just annoying out-of -control masochists, no wonder tragedies always outsell other categories, as if we are very much enjoying watch the fictional characters suffering, as if something had never happened to us can break our heart too.
Being rational is what people should do once we become a responsible adult, unfortunately its much easier said than done. I sighed. I think I am tough enough and also ready for the unforseeable future, I just need a little bit of time and determination.
When you are going through hell, keep going. -----I didn't say it, Churchill said so.
 总觉得我是‘美少女的好朋友’那种类型的女生。 还有，G10搞得我很没有脾气。
Hummus很好吃！
我终于要考驾照了。
经常去gym，慢跑我能跑40分钟。
2周前差点就发疯去直布罗陀Gibraltar了，以后有机会再去吧.
我要把头发染成蜜糖棕，或者板栗色。受够了现在的黑色。
February 08 dimanche, le 08 févrierI am thinking of booking a ticket to Saudi Arabia for the 14th of February. Valentine's Day is actually banned there, and what a wonderful idea that is.
 No hearts and flowers to put up with, cutsey teddy bears, or cheap roses. No happy couples bouncing about irritatingly, their limbs and genitals apparently glued together. No serenades and wedding proposals in expensive restaurants, no dire romantic comedies, or tacky Ann Summers window displays. lmao.Sometimes I can't help but thinking what is love all over again and will we find the right one eventually?
 Well, I probably already posted a blog about the definition of love but it seems too far away to remember it, sometimes the harrrrrsh reality just proved that all men are tw*ts (with a few exceptions I suppose), perhaps a hologram boyfriend would be just fine. It must be fun to meet this particular person and quickly grow addicted to his looks, his voices and his sense of humour. Still remember Charlotte was saying: I've been dating since I was fifteen! I'm exhausted! Where is he? hehe, I actually started dating since I was 13 and he is a gorgeous gorgeous boy, I cannot know for certain about now but back then he was very sweet and charming, that is for sure.As we grow up, feels like we dont LOVE for love anymore. Does that mean we are become more mature and rational or we just simply can not be bothered anymore?
I haven't had a proper first date in ages. I was reading this interesting novel another day, Did i get nervous having to leave a message on his answerphone? check. Did I deliberate over what I was going to wear on our date? check. Obssessing over the details, including Googling his name every few hours? Too right I did. Did my heart speed up just a tiny bit on seeing a text or email from him? You betcha.
It was so true and I can almost certain it must be a wonderful feeling when we are falling in love, all the details of the date are flawless and have significant meaning......untill we fu*ked it up by having f**king. I guess people just get use to straight from cuddling and kissing into 'whore mode', must blame all those Hollywood movies! I just simply miss the old times, little kids' love, sweet and simple.
Here is a question: if you are abandoned on an island
 , which five records would you take? Well, probably what I am listening now, some rocks n some blues, my Faye Wong, Leslie Cheung of course, maybe Jay Chow just for a laugh. I mean I am already alone on this planet, I dont really care. So here I am, sitting alone and listening this new Lily Allen song, the lyrics are quite sad, actually, which make me feel I am gonna cry. Then I look around and see my brand new Dolce&Gabbana and Armani, errrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. much better
 Fu*k it, telly time.January 20 平安喜乐
这是一个非常愉快的新年～ 太愉快了以至于我现在在无比痛苦的减肥， 可是不吃饱哪有力气减肥啊！真是纠结。一个人胖了之后总是对床的感情特别好,嗨～ 我脑子里都是好吃的东西，油条豆浆啦，米粉啦，酱板鸭啦，各种湘菜川菜广东菜啦，米粉是酸辣的还是牛肉的呢？是要萝卜糕还是锅贴呢？烧烤还是去八中那一块么？麻辣烫还是四中那一区么？都还是那么好吃么？什么时候才能再去伦敦吃那个超美味的crepes啊？我一边喝热水一边抒情的想着。 我跟汤汤在网上东扯西扯的时候，他突然问我一句：are you ok? 我就有点发愣，小学同窗的情谊可真不是盖的...汤汤最近也在job hunting,肯定比我还顺利，你的征途是星之大海。 中国新年又要到了，又是一年。好像过完20岁后就老记不住自己到底多大，小时候总是清楚的，越大就越不想记住，年年都21，again again and again. 小时候老是傻傻的，以为自己喜欢的，就一定喜欢自己，事实并非如此，我们不能强求别人,只能强求自己。我倒真没有过年的感觉，也就是平淡的一天吧。还有小时候倒是喜欢上门拜年，好多好吃的还有大大的红包可以拿啊，现在估计得往外给了，角色转换太快没法适应。 今年xmas shopping我给自己非常非常非常多的奖励，非常非常的多～～～～，如果购物是减压的方式，我在负压的状态下活了好一阵。前天看nina说买了双小靴子过年穿踩小人，我也拿这个做借口给自己又买了双黑色ankle boots.....外加一条裙子，一件上衣，一条小裤子.....muahahahaha..... Pretend you're happy when you're blue 新的一年，希望家人和朋友都健健康康顺顺利利，平安喜乐。 January 01 Happy New Year 2009
我的新年就在欢呼声里到来啦～～～
Party like a superstar!! lol
p.s. Canon G10真是让我又爱又郁闷啊！ 大家新年快乐！！！天天快乐！！每时每刻都快乐！！！love u all~~~~ December 22 选择困难症
圣诞节是给自己买东西的完美借口，我每年都要疯狂这么几次，买的大件们暂且不表，这周当我抱回2条miss sixty, 然后又抱回2条tommy的jeans, 我就坐在家里盯着这4条裤子看了半天，给自己的症状做了个总结。大部分人都有这样的通病，只是因为选择太多。跟做选择题一样，选项太多了其实不是好事，haha~ 现在做选择题错了还倒扣分呢，上次看系里成绩有的学生拿负分，笑得我要晕倒。 我花了一天把家里收拾好了，晚上开了瓶sparkling wine, 我傻啊！把瓶子给摇了摇，结果瓶塞子冲开如黄河决口一发不可收拾，半瓶全漏在地毯上.....真是白劳动了！完完全全的无用功！早知道就不干活了！ 上周business and economics school大部分的老师都去Morgan Hotel圣诞节聚餐，本来没我事，结果有个老师没法去硬抓着我参加，哈哈，混白吃呗！结果我成了唯一的'学生'--hehe半个学生半个老师吧....介于我常年在咱学校，大部分的老师以前都教过我。晕得我不行。坐我对面的是cliff jones,不知道以前在长沙一起读书的小盆友们还记得他当年去过河西么？那时是2001年吧，哈哈，真是哪里开始哪里结束。Sian 和Mary对我特别照顾（haha, Nina， 我跟Sian提你她都记得你，还问你好...剩下的那一群老头子主要是business那边的，还是咱经济系好） 最近跟我们家的美女们上网聊天，就愈发的想念。友情才是永恒，我是个幸运的女生，一直都是，我的身边的朋友们都好，我的闺蜜们是我最贴心的，说察人观其友，我有着你们我很骄傲。多的我就不表，你我都明了。这个世界好多地方我想去，那里都有欢迎我的朋友，真的，不见得每个人有这么好的运气。 前两天接到一个很sweet的电话，我很开心。哈哈，期待我的2009！ |
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