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February 28 再见亦是朋友我是喜欢纸质照片多于digital的，我喜欢在家里走来走去的时候都能看到自己，家人，朋友，爱人的样子和灿烂的笑容，多美好。明儿去洗照片去。最近我的状态非常的稳定，stable, 有点嘲讽的意味在里面，我承认之前偶尔有些心绪不宁，可是想明白了也不过尔尔，干脆也就爱怎么着怎么着吧，人长大了也没法Naive，那就不是naive了，是笨！hehehe.不过生活马上要面对巨大转变，我希望这个过渡期能平稳一些。 很小时候我是一个非常害羞的孩子，一说话就会脸红。后来稍稍大点不知道怎么就性格鲜明，跟仙人掌下凡似的浑身是刺，世界里只有对或者错没有卡在中间的定义，太极端了其实不好。再后来性格慢慢被改造，一路走来陪伴在身边的朋友们教会了我很多事，而且成长必定伴随着痛苦，妈妈说小时候吃苦比长大吃苦强，有些事情在我无法控制的时候我常常拿这个来安慰自己，现在再回头看看，哈哈，嗨！真是小孩子的天真啊！就跟我小时候写日记，超级夸张的：‘今天是个我一辈子都难忘的日子，。。。。’然后含含蓄蓄的描述下心情。鬼晓得那天到底怎么了？路上捡到了1块钱？或者跟心仪的小男生在小卖部寒暄了？还是什么小时候自以为神神秘秘乱七八糟的小事情？ 我都忘记了。 为什么突然想这些呢，其实我害怕长大，其实喜欢我的世界里是非对错黑白分明，每件事情都概念明确，yes就是yes,no就是no,没有这所谓的 stupid answer: well, maybe, i suppose, or, ahhh, yes and no, actually i donno. 我是economist to-be，事实上我写的东西全都是tmd不明确型答案，我的态度永远都是ambiguous含糊不清的。我曾经追逐着每件事情都要弄明白，以为知道答案就能解决一切困惑，哪里知道其实好多事情是没有答案的，或者明确点，没有简单的答案的，我不想上升到哲学的角度，神学的角度我又更加不懂了。有时候我能明白为什么宗教的力量无比强大，你只需要有faith并且祷告上帝，你的困惑就会迎刃而解。 再见亦是朋友，原谅即是遗忘。 我想很多很多事情会不在我控制中被我慢慢忘掉，虽然我努力的想记住它们。不光是事情，当时认为重要的事情，还有身边的人，当时认为重要的人。哪里看/写过这句我只能陪伴你数年，然后匆匆离开。而数年这个度量单位，没人知道是多久。永远有多远这样的问题已经让我发笑，是我生性太凉薄么？还是这就是成长的代价？ 周四是Anita的生日，从4点就从办公室里开始喝酒聊天然后一路杀到town里酒吧继续。我喜欢和朋友们在一起。我是一个幸运的孩子。我渡过了一个非常愉快的一天，我不用也不必说我永远也忘不了这天，因为我知道我会很快忘掉，而且照片的作用就是在未来提醒你，你看，你那天很开心！这不就够了么。所以赶紧的我明儿就去印照片。
February 15 看图说话There is a fine line between hope and false hope, nevertheless, people tend to believe lots of things when they are vulnerable. Most of time we are just annoying out-of -control masochists, no wonder tragedies always outsell other categories, as if we are very much enjoying watch the fictional characters suffering, as if something had never happened to us can break our heart too.
Being rational is what people should do once we become a responsible adult, unfortunately its much easier said than done. I sighed. I think I am tough enough and also ready for the unforseeable future, I just need a little bit of time and determination.
When you are going through hell, keep going. -----I didn't say it, Churchill said so.
 总觉得我是‘美少女的好朋友’那种类型的女生。 还有，G10搞得我很没有脾气。
Hummus很好吃！
我终于要考驾照了。
经常去gym，慢跑我能跑40分钟。
2周前差点就发疯去直布罗陀Gibraltar了，以后有机会再去吧.
我要把头发染成蜜糖棕，或者板栗色。受够了现在的黑色。
February 08 dimanche, le 08 févrierI am thinking of booking a ticket to Saudi Arabia for the 14th of February. Valentine's Day is actually banned there, and what a wonderful idea that is.
 No hearts and flowers to put up with, cutsey teddy bears, or cheap roses. No happy couples bouncing about irritatingly, their limbs and genitals apparently glued together. No serenades and wedding proposals in expensive restaurants, no dire romantic comedies, or tacky Ann Summers window displays. lmao.Sometimes I can't help but thinking what is love all over again and will we find the right one eventually?
 Well, I probably already posted a blog about the definition of love but it seems too far away to remember it, sometimes the harrrrrsh reality just proved that all men are tw*ts (with a few exceptions I suppose), perhaps a hologram boyfriend would be just fine. It must be fun to meet this particular person and quickly grow addicted to his looks, his voices and his sense of humour. Still remember Charlotte was saying: I've been dating since I was fifteen! I'm exhausted! Where is he? hehe, I actually started dating since I was 13 and he is a gorgeous gorgeous boy, I cannot know for certain about now but back then he was very sweet and charming, that is for sure.As we grow up, feels like we dont LOVE for love anymore. Does that mean we are become more mature and rational or we just simply can not be bothered anymore?
I haven't had a proper first date in ages. I was reading this interesting novel another day, Did i get nervous having to leave a message on his answerphone? check. Did I deliberate over what I was going to wear on our date? check. Obssessing over the details, including Googling his name every few hours? Too right I did. Did my heart speed up just a tiny bit on seeing a text or email from him? You betcha.
It was so true and I can almost certain it must be a wonderful feeling when we are falling in love, all the details of the date are flawless and have significant meaning......untill we fu*ked it up by having f**king. I guess people just get use to straight from cuddling and kissing into 'whore mode', must blame all those Hollywood movies! I just simply miss the old times, little kids' love, sweet and simple.
Here is a question: if you are abandoned on an island
 , which five records would you take? Well, probably what I am listening now, some rocks n some blues, my Faye Wong, Leslie Cheung of course, maybe Jay Chow just for a laugh. I mean I am already alone on this planet, I dont really care. So here I am, sitting alone and listening this new Lily Allen song, the lyrics are quite sad, actually, which make me feel I am gonna cry. Then I look around and see my brand new Dolce&Gabbana and Armani, errrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. much better
 Fu*k it, telly time. |
好想你也在一起啊～～|
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